the difference..is me.

what i have to say is just my piece of mind, and i hope it does not offend anyone who reads this.

for the past year or so, i've always felt left behind,
not that because i'm left out or anything,
but schoolwork.
i always feel "behind" of the class.
c140 thrives on perfection.
everyone won't settle for anything but perfect.
but that's not me.
i hate perfectionists.
sorry.
but its just me.
i don't understand why everyone demands perfection?
where does that leave our flaws?
i think our flaws is what makes us different.
i know i am different to everyone else in class,
its not arrogance, i just know it.
my mentality is different.
maybe because i don't have my heart in what i'm doing.
but i dunno, everytime i hear praises from others on yours work
i feel so low.
cause i know i'll never get them
it's always, "not bad what", "its ok what", "quite nice"
you get the drift.
i know i dont exactly stand out when it comes to work.
sigh, what am i even saying.
somethings i feel i don't fit in c140
cause everyone is so different.
at times i wonder if being in c140 is a goodthing.
and i ask myself why i couldn't i be in some other lousier class.
where everyone has lower expectations for them.
being in the "best" class is more of a curse to me.
sigh i'm sorry friends, but things aren't just going well for me.
not only school but family as well.
family,school and work.
problems never end for me.
2007 is so not the year for me.
sorry if i have offended anyone.
so yeah..my mind is sort of cleared
back to "perfecting" my work so i won't be left out.
yeah right..