your words are easier being said.
my actions don't speak for what i'm doing.
i feel trapped by this endless cycle.
my life is pretty much a fighter jet waiting to be shot down.
i try glancing to the future, but i don't see one.
optimism won't settle this empowering fear.
the fear of losing everything.
everything which i hold dear.
take things at a time,
how am i suppose to when it all comes together.
i'm really trying.
trying to be that person.
that person whom you've always wished and dreamt i was.
but its hard, its hard when i can't even rely on myself.
everyone is relying on me.
just a word of caution.
i hope you all have a safety.
cause i'm afraid i won't live up to everyone's expectations.
i'm not saying i'm giving up
i just wish i was stronger, i really do.
to hold everyones hand and be that person to say its alright.
i won't stop trying cause i really want to be someone.
so please lord, if you can hear me.
shed some light.
i've been in perpetual darkness.
and i really wish to see the sun again.