just one of those days..

it kinda dawn onto me, once again, that i'll be stuck studying and doing things which i dont really like. and now, the more i think about it, the less important it gets. example? i really couldn't be bothered for the cmaths test on friday. usually i'll be like " yeah exams over and i think i'll pass!" but on friday it was like "yeah, whatever." honestly, i dunno what the future holds for me. i'm sure i don't wanna be some animator or designer. i seriously regretted my decision to go into ind, without knowing shit about it. sigh, friends i'm not really functioning straight cause i'm wrecking my head, trying to figure out a path for my future. if only my parents really knew how i felt. if they only read all the things i wrote her.. if only..
i know most you already know, i update my blog regularly. yeah, its not because i have alot of time or because i got alot to say. it's just that this is me. i enjoy writing(another reason why i should have gone mass com.) from young i've enjoyed writing. compositions are my favourites. writing long essays often exceeding the word limit. i wrote like 900 words for my O's. but i dont mean to boast here. i'm just saying this is me and not the person currently in ind. its like doing something you don't enjoy. i'm sure many of you know the feeling. everything is done halfhearted because you simply don't enjoy it. everyone has taken the subjects into their strides. its like they know what they want and how to approach it. everyone but me. dilemma people..