reunion dinner or painful reminder?

this is the last time i ever want to have a reunion dinner. it kinda serves as a painful reminder that i don't really have a family. it involves, 4 plates of food. 2 of which have no taste, arguments at the table and basically its like not even eating cause i'm still fucking hungry. portions were cooked to only serve like 4 people when there was like 8 people at the table. fucking pathetic..seriously. so much for a reunion dinner, everyone just left to do their own things.. sigh i'm giving up on this whole concept of family..