you know, there's something which sets me aside from the rest of the people in the class..something which really can influence a person to do well or bad. unlike most people in my class, i do not want to be in ind. i mean seriously, the rest of you have dreams of being web designers or whatever, but i don't. maybe thats why i never really put all my effort into my work. i am a hardworker believe it or not. i kinda was in secondary school where things made a whole lot of sense to me compared to know. somehow, i think i would have been much more happy in jc compared to being in ind.. no offense to the rest of the class, but this is just not my calling. i see the rest putting in so much effect and dedication that it really scares me to be with the rest of you. i guess you can say i'm intimidated by everyone's work cause i know everyone is better than me, one way or another. i know i've been complaning alot these days..but i dunno. i can't really discuss this with my family, they are kinda only bothered with the things that matter to them. sigh my head's pounding. sigh fuck this. fuck life cause it brings nothing but misery. communism looks kinda good right about now.