the breakdown.

i feel that God is unfair towards certain individuals.
one individual is me.
he always seem to stack the odds highly against me.
right when i thought everything seems clear and right for once,
he throws a fastball at me.
my family is in shambles.
yes, my parents are fighting again and they are hell bent on dragging everyone down with them
they are so unfair to the children
they can never settle their differences without bringing me in to their arguments.
from sleeping, i was woken up by them, each trying to prove their point
this leaves me with a heavy heart and mind, resulting in distractions.
which affects my everyday life.
i guess that's another reason why i was so distracted in school, and thats because of them.
i really wish there was someone who can help me in this.
but no one can..
i am so tired, i really am and for once in my life,
i really wish to stop caring for everyone around
and just think about me.
i don't know what to do.
divorce, affairs, no good, he says, she says
i've heard it all before
i envy other people and their normal family.
where their parents hold the family together and are their pillar of support and strength.
my family has been lacking that for a long time
i am so ashamed of my family.
of my life.
i want to give up..really.
someone please help me..