alot less emo..

from sat:

a photo of xiao wen taking a photo of me.


guess who?

today:

<3


my purpled eye girlfriend.


my baby's bringing sexy back.

Oh and i fell in love with mixing songs..loves it! anyway, i'll be mixing songs for safy's dance routines and for fun i guess. i'll post some songs next time on my blog. oh and i finally can sleep, for now..

Firstly, i would like to thank everyone for their support. sure the concern you all have shown me is really uplifting and i can say that i'm running on your words of encouragement. so for everything thanks alot guys. i don't know who or what i'll be without you guys.peace my brothers and sisters.

Secondly, i haven't slept in like 36 hours and counting and strangely i'm neither tired nor sleepy. Sleep is the last thing in my mind right now. I'm seriously at a lost now for this MMP proposal. Like the lamb from Mary had a little lamb, which got lost..ok i should come up with better catch phrases. Anyway here's the deal, i really appreciate it if someone helps me through this proposal process, cause i know i won't be able to go through this alone. So anyone here wants to be burdened by me, please leave a message after the beep..*beep* or you could just tag my board or whatever.

Thirdly, when all else fails, which is honestly, my favourite of all reasons/excuses, lets just all boycott this MMP1 proposal thing. I mean seriously, pillai dumped a whole shitload of work onto us all of a sudden and honestly, i don't think its fair. We have other projects too and he expects us to be perfect. Whatever room for error has to be corrected and met to his expectations. I honestly wanna see his first piece of work in his portfolio, cause i wanna see how "CRAPPY" his first work was. Sigh stressed..relax relapse people 4 more days. the ball is our court now, put your game face on cause its crunch time.

who needs sleep?
i mean seriously, who needs it when you have coffee?
i know i don't because i haven't slept a wink this whole fcuking night
you know, things are just really heated up at home and thinking about it just makes me pissed and kinda stressed as well.
sure things in school aren't going so great either, but this at home thing is unnecessary, and i mean totally.
ok might be the nerves talking due to the fact that i haven't slept and many people use the weekends to catch up on sleep, but i on the otherhand, use the weekends to stay up later than on weekdays.
something is seriously wrong with me..
am i suppose to think like this?
i guess thats why i joined psychology in the first place.
hmmm 6am, another 2 and 1/2 hours of not sleeping then i'll be leaving this hellhole for school.
friends, i'm at the lowest of low in my life now.
so don't expect me to be cheery and funny this coming week
cause honestly, thats just a facade of who i truly am..
life is misery as of late
and i guess i should show you guys the epitome of emo.
k fuck this.

another emo update..

all i can say is fuck mmp and everything that it stands for,
i mean come on, this is the damn reason why so many people drop out from IT school
the pressure, the stress and the expectations.
should have stuck to my decision and not listened to his
no offence to all the great friends i've made
but life in IND really sucks, big time.
i seriously suck at dealing with stress
and its crunch time now, the final quater with secounds remaining
what am i suppose to do?
so feel like just handing pillai a blank piece of work and saying "sorry, i'm just not good enough"
but thats not me is it?

SO, FUCK YOU MMP,I'M GONNA GONNA GRAB YOU BY THE THROAT,GRAB A GRASSCUTTER, SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS AND RIP YOUR INNARDS APART!

...ok sorry for the rage blackout, i'm just so stressed right now
not only by mmp but the things at home
i refuse to speak to my dad and sister
whatever, i refuse to be the first to break the silence.
i'm sure everyone knows how well i play the silent game.

trouble seems to be keeping me on a short leash, i mean seriously
girl problems are over, family problems knocking on the front door as we speak.
things are so messed up at home right now.
i seriously look down on my family, if thats what you can call it.
so much for family, i'm close to punching my dad, i mean seriously
he might as well be the first person i beat up.
no lies my friends,
i usually hit back if someone hits me repeatedly, but i haven't thrown a punch back
but i swear, if he ever does what he did to me again
i'll beat his fucking face into a pulp
no lies my friends,
he will not die of old age, seriously illnesses such as cancer or stroke
by my hands he'll fall because he fucking deserves it for abandoning the family
you can call me a family guy,
but sadly i don't really have a family
just a greedy bunch of fuckers who stay in the same house
messed up my life is,
alright i'm coming
time to answer the door and face trouble
steadfast i am,
my heart's a soldier
marching on to die..

brighter than sunshine.

it's just another day,
nothing in my way
i don't wanna go,
i don't wanna stay
so there's nothing left to say..

hello me, welcome back

blurry

this use to be my favourite song when i was first influenced by the emo genre, not really an emo band but whatever, just wanna share and play close attention to the lyrics:

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You can be my scene
And know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doin'
Imagine where you are
'Cause oceans in between us
But that's not very far


Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

And you could be my someone
You can be my scene
And know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doin'
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me


Oh,
Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you where to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you where to run away

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

NOOOOOO!

This pain you gave to me

This pain you gave to me

Take it all away

Take it all away

This pain you gave to me

This pain you gave to me

Take it all away

This pain you gave to me

without love, life is an empty shell; hollow.

what's life without love?
a hollowed out empty shell; meaningless
someone please define the meaning of love for me
because i think i may have gotten it all wrong
selfless, sympathizing, impressing, striving to make her happy
but it never seems to be enough for her
i thought i had shown her love, but apparently it isn't enough to keep her with me
where did i go wrong?
is love really worth it
cause i'm seriously doubting love now.
leave me once, shame on you
leave me twice, shame on me
leave me thrice, say good bye
cause i'm gone
adios, au revoir, sayonara and most importantly,
good bye forever..
because i'm not turning back again.

because i am bored and i can't sleep:


In your bedroom you have:
[x] a television
[x] cd player
[x] vcds
[x] dvds
[ ] dvd player
[x] playstation/xbox
[x] radio
[x] computer/laptop
[ ] fridge
[X] bathroom
[x] posters
TOTAL: 9


You are allowed to:
[x] party
[x] go to the mall with friends
[x] eat unhealthy stuff
[x] stay out til past midnight
[x] have ur own curfew
[x] pick ur own school
[x] buy ur own stuff
[x] drive anywhere
[x] drink liquor
[x] curse

TOTAL: LOL,10



Have you ever?
[x] talk back to ur parents
[x] sneak out at night
[x] been "told" not "scolded"
[x] been out of country
[x] shopped til u drop
[x] been given more money than u needed
[ ] felt u were heavily guarded
[ ] spent thousands in one store only
[x] made ur parent(s) cry
[ ] yelled at ur maid

TOTAL: 7



DO YOU
[x] have what u need
[ ] get what u want
[ ] travel a lot
[x] have a maid
[ ] have a driver
[x] get a high allowance
[x] do whatever u want
[x] have branded clothing
[ ] have a credit card
[x] eat whenever u want

TOTAL: 6



DO YOUR PARENTS
[ ] ever scold you for not following your curfew
[ ] give u EVERYTHING u want
[x] trust you
[ ] buy you things for the sake of buying them
[x] give you "extra cash" when you're out somewhere
[x] think u should have the best and only the best
[x] want you to be happy
[x] help you
[x] love you
[ ] pay for the mess you've made

TOTAL: 6



multiply the total number by 2 to get your spoilt percentage.
(9+10+7+6+6) = 38x2 = 76%

i'm not really spoilt, just that i got alot of freedom, that's all.

and you could see that there was hardly love..

so i was an hour late for cmsk1 today. woke up at like 8am and only left my house at 9.05am..i only realised i was late when mal sms me and i saw my the time on my hp, 9.38am..WTF anyway yeah i set my alarm to like 8am, my bad guys. must have been due to the intense session yesterday..sigh i dont wanna dwell on that. anyway dressed as some punk/hip hop guy today. baggy clothes and spiked hair. everyone was like "WAHHHH" when i walked in the class after making my hair..lol anyway after was pillai and he approved my idea for the proposal. fooled around with the guys and scared some girls with my ehem, "erection" lol it was the warheads mini bottle not my you know..lol yeah went to mensa for lunch.. ate salmon teriyaki and salad.. was still hungry after eating though. anyway after went to play some ping pong. ides followed which was spent doing dreamweaver, photoshop and imageready..sigh reminds me of NMM. chose my topic already, doing photography. so yeah hope it'll be better than last sem. had like a really bad headache today due to the lack of rest. went to psychology lecture which i manage to stay awake and pay attention. erm lj came to my house for dinner..lol she seems to be hitting off at my mom pretty well..future in laws..haha too bad my bro wasn't at home. sent her off at like 9.45. and i just got dced from a dota game..sigh anyway tomorrow's 8am and got 4 hours break, what to do people? what are we gonna do?

k quiz time:
7 Random Things About Me:
- i am random
- i'm serious 31% of the time
- i might be single soon
- i worship SETH from the oc(aka adam brody)
- sarcasm is my middle name
- and so is nicholas
- i love pepperoni pizza

7 Things That Scare Me:
- heights
- horror shows
- deep water
- losing the people i love
- public speaking
- not being loved
- people not laughing at my jokes. i thrive on laughter and maybe coffee.


7 Random Songs:
- the killers - mr brightside
- bloc party - plans
- placebo - running up that hill
- puddle of mudd - blurry
- scary kids scaring kids - breath of sunshine
- phantom planet - california
- iron & wine - naked as we came


7 people to do this:
- this is the part where i say something like you
- but this time i think i won't say it
- cause honestly it's getting kinda old
- i mean seriously,
- everyone expects me to say that
- so therefore i shall not say it..
- ...you

you know, i was kinda looking forward to today but you spoiled it.
i'm not your punchbag, stop throwing me blows of hate and anger
i need some love and care
i envy others, their love is my misery
because i know we'll never be like them
i accepted the fact you won't change for me
and i still love you, but honestly am i being fair to myself?
i'm tired of being used and trying to buy your love
things aren't meant to be like this..
..the nightmares have return
i predict dark gloomy days ahead.

it never ends
the past which i can't shake off my back
misery and pain are friends
both haunting me each day
i am so tired, really feel like throwing the towel in
i'm just not good enough i guess
someone please hear out my helpless cry
someone remove me from this nightmare called life.

and if i only could, make a deal with god, get him to swap our places..





when will she be coming back?





...if i only could

ok, so i finally back from a damn long day with lj and xw. was fun la today, took quite alot of good pictures and some good laughs as the day drew on. met lj at kovan mrt at like 1.40. i asked my brother to follow me there just for her, but she didnt wanna meet him sighhh. just for her know..LOL anyway we proceeded to meet xw at orchard mrt. FIRST, to far east where we ate lunch and bought that purple dress that safy was telling me about. THANK YOU XW FOR BEING MY MODEL FOR THAT DRESS. i shall try to get you something nice for your birthday lol. anyway after that we went to wheelock place where we took alot of nice pictures. went around looking in some of the shops. i got stuck in the staircase and they both refuse to open the door for me because they thought i was faking it. seriously, why would i lie about that. haha anyway, i went down like 4 stories and went back up. they went searching for me at all the levels( i know you both are worried about me :P) and i managed to sneak behind and scared both of them at the 2nd level.after wheelock we walked all the way to orchard parade hotel. saw a pink cab and the driver had like pink uniform i think, i'm sure wy would have loved it haha. had coffee and coffeebean and an apple from lj..lol. we went to clarke quey at like 6.30 plus. took more pictures..man i love hooters..haha took hell lots of pictures at the fountain. bought some vodka and drank like 3/4 the bottles, xw drank like the rest.hahaha. walked to boat quey and stoned along the singapore river. took some pictures as well. next, was most probably the saddest point of our day. we bought magee mee and sandwiches and ate them at the raffles place mrt station stairs..LOL i'm sure people were staring. but fcuk it. we randomly decided to go esplanade which was about 9 i think. went to the roof where we chatted abit, funny and embarassing talks lol and games of truth and dare..which was pretty funny hahaha. they couldnt dare or ask me anything cause they knew i would do it. made them kiss, hug stuff, lie on stuff and each other haha. funny shit. continued all the way to kovan mrt station. xw followed us back cause it was rather fun honestly..haha. made them prank sms 2 of the guys in the class. you guys know who you are.haha took 112 to the 72 bus stop where xw took 72 and lj walked home. k thats about it i guess if i missed anything xw's blog should have it. my baby's coming back tomorrow =) and i got episode 1 of season 4 for the oc..gonna watch it later. for now, its some pizza and man u match. unbeatable combination.

wooooo ok, so fianlly its the weekends. can finally take a breather, everyone chill chill, relax relax. handed in my mmp1 interface today. apparently its too nmm-ish, so i guess i have to change it. but i handed it in regardless cause i couldnt be bothered to do anymore. flavours then printed stuff for cmsk3 till like 5pm which was when the lesson started. lol in the end, we all just played with our laptops in class. met wy and lj at the stadium. oh some guy cracked his head on the street soccer court and was bleeding. ambulance came..blah blah blah you know the drill. lj went off cause she lost her thumbdrive. slacked around till she came back. i then accompanied her to look for it again. couldn't find it so we decided to go check the office on monday. bus back with her, which was not too bad i guess..managed to cheer her up abit. which is good. tomorrow going to town to take pictures. just won 3 games of dota..ginnose people. whatever that means.

so, she's gone for 4 days and she'll only be back on sunday afternoon =((((
anyway i woke up late today, like 8am, so i missed it. reached school like around 9.15pm. met with lj where we went to the library to do some mmp sketching. brunch at design school, then went to meet the rest at itas. zzzz peiqi, xiao wen, wing yi and kelina were all wearing some checked mickey mouse shirt. xw's one was red so she was like the leader of the mickey mouse fan club..haha it was extremely disturbing for me because i somehow find it odd to see peole wearing the same clothes. i know i would hate seeing someone wearing the same shirt as me. celebrated shellen's b'day along with all the other b'days we missed. smashed some cake on her face for good measures..hhaha. erm anyway, my MMP design was approved. YAYNESS oh and i was almost raped by the mickey mouse club during lab..tickles, slaps to the back and punches..mang.. after lesson, went to itas to have a late lunch. talked and laughed at stuff. then the guys and i decided not to play the match tonight cause we have tons of things to do. went to hougang mall with lj to borrow some books for the many projects we have. slept on the bus, dunno why i got so tired all of a sudden. drank some coffee from ya kun and i felt better, but as for now i'm tired again. sigh cant wait for the weekends and for my love to come back.

1. Where were you 2 hours ago?
out with my dad, trying to get me a new phone, but it was out of stock =(

2. Where will you be two hours from now?
right where i am now, infront of the computer, in my room.

3. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
my FFX-2 poster.

4. When is the last time you went to the mall?
just.

5. Are you wearing socks right now?
not in the house.

6. When was the last time you went out of the state?
must have been about 2-3 years ago.

7. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
nope.

8. What was the last thing you had to drink?
honey lemon ice blended.

9.What are you wearing right now?
honestly, just boxers. standard at home for me =P

10. What was your last purchase?
burger king

11. Last food you ate?
onion rings.

12. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
stephanie aka safy. asked her about her econs paper.

13. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
nope. its been a while since i went shopping.

14. Do you have a pet?
yeah, kimchoon. LOL just kidding man.no i don't

15. What's the last sporting event you watched?
director's cup. i wish i could have seen me play.LOL

16. What is/was your favorite class?
i had 2, english and history.

17. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
in her arms.

18. What is the last thing you purchased online?
online subscription for my anti virus.

19. How old are your parents?
40+ i think.

20. What is your favorite soup?
i got a few. summer vegetable soup from pizza hut, forest mushroom soup from mache, clam chowder from long john's, potato and bacon bits from chucky can soup.

21. Do you miss anyone?
very much.

22. Last play you saw?
can't say i have seen one.

23. What are your plans for tomorrow?
school during the day. gf in the evening.

24. Who is the last person you messaged on myspace?
you.

25. Ever go to camp?
yes, but i hate camps.

26. Are you an honor roll student in school?
of course, honors of the most slackest guy in class.

27.What do you think will happen in the future?
i'll be a rich homeless guy, who's bulimic because i have way too much to eat, i'll have a loving wife who'll most probably file a divorce against me because she found a uglier looking and poorer guy who sucks in bed unlike me. how the heck would i know what would happen in the future. LIVE FOR THE MOMENT PEOPLE!

28. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
always whenever i go out. currently i have ralph lauren:polo and davidoff:game

31. Do you have a tan?
i'm nocturnal, but a healthy tan would be nice.

32. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
when my wife feels like it.

33. Do you collect anything?
hmm, girls underwear, scabs, eraser shavings and pizza boxers..LOL no i dont collect stuff.

34. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
2 ear piercings, well 3 actually.one closed and i re-pierced it.

35. How do you like your soda?
sprite with some fruity syrup.

36. Do you like hot sauce?
nope, i don't really fancy spicy stuff.

37. Last time you took a shower?
20 mins ago.

38. What is your mood right now?
stoned.

39. Are you someones best friend?
i dunno you tell me.if i'm your best friend, please say so. thank you.

40. What's the last TV show you watched?
VIVA LA BAM!

SORRY GUYS BUT I CAN'T PLAY TOMORROW'S MATCH DUE TO EARLIER PLANS MADE LIKE 3 WEEKS AGO. GOMENASAI! DUI BU CHEE! SORRY!.

The top 10 qualities you look for in a guy/girl-friend(not in proper order):
-loving
-understanding
-open minded
-a smile to brighten my day
-humorous(because i am)
-sarcastic(because i am as well)
-sweet
-must enjoy hugging cause i love to hug :)
-independent
-everything my current gf has

top 5 qualities you look for in a friend:
-easy going
-same interest as me(musics, games and style)
-humorous
-enjoys to fool around(because i do, alot)
-dependable

5 ppl to do this:
-you
-you
-you
-you
-and you all the way at the back.

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS OF YEAR 1!

ok so we won our first match against ABC, which has that "handsome" guy Joseph in it. we waited for like 3 hours or so for our match please. the wait was killing me. hate waiting cause i was quite nervous. anyway the match was as follows. they took the first lead, but we caught up thanks to edmund and yong han. i was damn tired from like 5mins into the 1st half. stamina like shit. anyway, scored 2 points via layup in the 1st half. 1st half ended 10(us)-8(them). 2nd half was so much better. they barely scored thanks to some nice defense and steals(mostly from me).LOL i scored like 5 points in the 2nd half, though i missed alot of chances as well since i wanted them to foul me as well. all my baskets came from lay-ups. LOL i stole a ball from Joseph and scored and he fouled me as well, so i converted a free throw into a 3 pointer. that was nice i guess, with the whole class cheering when i scored, so i turned around and pointed to them..haha arrogance on my part. Oh a even better play was when i rejected a guy's pass with a damn loud swipe of my hand and the ball smashed into his face. but it was a foul, but my friend, who was the other referee said it wasn't a foul. DAMN IT, it was a nice steal cause i jumped damn high to intercept that pass and i came from behind him..Zzzzzz. anyway, we dominated the 2nd half and we won 24-11 lol. good job guys, hope we can do the same for the wednesday games. but i honestly doubt we can. sighhhh. and i might not be playing as well due to other plans. anyway, our captain's ball team didn't do as well. =( nvm try harder guys..we are DOHC and we never give up! kk i'm damn tired now so nights all..

its the most depressing day of the week: monday.

currently in the most depressing lesson : OOPG.

in the most depressing state: sick.

the most depressing illness: flu

even more reason to be depressed: basketball match at 8.30pm.

which leads to more depression because: no time for assignments.

bring the depression over to tomorrow: tired, most probably still sick and has to rush mmp

comes wednesday, which will be depressing because: long day at school & basketball matches at 6.30pm & 9.10pm

i'll be even more depressed because: he made plans with his gf on wednesday(her A level ends), and most probably will be cancelled cause of the match & if i play those matches i won't be able to get any work done as well.

AND I'LL BE MORE DEPRESSED/WRIST-CUTTING DEPRESSION because: my girlfriend will be away for the rest of the week and i won't see her till sunday cause she's going to thailand, which is not really the safest of countries to be in right now.

so basically this week will be: depressing.

xiao wen borrow your penknife please..thank you.

so i am the new captain for the basketball team. i'm not really a leadership kinda person, but i'll do my best guys. so woke up today at 11 plus, read the papers while edmund wanked above me. lol slacked around, ate lunch, showered then left to edmund's house to collect my camera which i had left there yesterday. he gave me a HIM shirt cause it was too small and tight which is my thing. so thanks man. went to pasir ris after to meet kc, pq and clarence. sat around infront of them for like 5 mins plus before they saw us.. sigh some friends you guys are. everytime never call sia. lol did some work then ate dinner. dota with edmund for like half and hour then kc and him came to my house for last minute basketball training. my baby came down for a while, goddddd i missed her. 3 more days love <3 erm we played till 8.30 then they left. read my just bought fhm and now going to cook some supper. oh and i still have tons of shit to do. lazy and last minute is how i roll, not hardworking. peace.

so went to town today with wy and edmund. met them at around 1pm at city hall. lunch at subway, then headed to esplanade to take some pictures. sigh it rained like uystaDFsasdlskf today, so we didnt take that many pictures. but i managed to get some nice ones. had coffee at tcc, ate chicken wings and wedges as well. after that, went to edmund's house. slacked there till 8 so that we don't have to pay surcharge. edmund will be staying over at my place today. ahah tomorrow will be training some basketball and maybe get some work done. i would post some pictures, but i left my camera at his house..i hope. so yeah thats bout it.

if there's anything to say,
if there's anything to do,
if there's any other way,
i'll do anything for you.


sigh another stressful day for me, i don't know bout the rest, but it was rather stressful for me. the thoughts of changing course struck me again. so much work, so little time.basketball from 10 - 11.30. overseas aussie talk from 12-1. mmp 1-3, which was what killed me. i'm not really that talent or gifted like what mr pillai said in using all those softwars to edit and stuff. if you wanna raw picture that i can do, but i can't and rather dislike editing them cause i always seem to fall behind in class. freehand, dreamweaver, fireworks even java. i always seem to be a step behind the others. saddening ain't it. this really ain't my field of expertise. apel was rather dull to me today cause i wasn't exactly in a good mood. liang jun said she was afraid to talk to me in apel cause i looked like i would chrome the next person who pissed me off. its times like this where i wish i had a punching bag. hitting things usually relieves me when i'm angry, upset or stressed. well, thats my escape. so like an idiot, went into one of the empty classrooms after apel and starting punching the board on the wall. took some edge off. then went to flavours to eat. laughter is the best medicine. shared some jokes with the rest and felt better. went home and here i am waiting to start on my report. firstly, i need some therapy. anyone wanna therapy session with me? i'll bring the trigger, you pull it.

whatta day. cmsk1 in the morning, picked our topics for our project or whatever it is. we got canada aye? so we gotta put up a presentation/roleplay on them aye. lol ok enough of the canadian accent. lol pillai didnt turn up today, and our class, thanks to amalina, discovered the wonders of ISKETCH. it is one of the most infectious sites on the net for me when you're playing with your friends, first it was 3 of us, mal,denise and i were playing. before you know it, the whole class, even peggy was playing.hahaha so now we all got stuff to do during breaks and stuff. so thanks mal :) kudos to you. hmmm so after ides, left for psychology lecture, alone. today's topic was the behavior of dogs..seriously, now i understand kim choon better.haha anyway tomorrow apel is pushed till 3, but still gotta go school early to "train" haha. GO DOHC oh and tomorrow i'm attending the uni talk. some planning for the future will do me some good. anyway, who's up for some isketch now? i got my wordweb with me now..hahaha. cursive signing off.

LOL

the thought of changing course must have ran through my mine several times during OOPG today, haven't had that thought since studying for IISO last semester. i'm not meant to memorise codes and numbers. the thought of changing course is still on my mine..thing is, should i?

anyway, i got this from the papers, don't know how many of you all read this.

You're a computer junkie when...

You remember all of your friends by their e-mail address.

In real-life conversation, instead of laughing, you go "LOL,LOL"

You don't call your parents because they don't have a modem.

You chat with an overseas pen-pal several times a day, but you haven't spoken to your neighbour yet this year.

You check your email, it says "no new messages" and you get depressed, then you check it again.

You decide to stay in college/poly for an additional year or two, just for the free internet access.

You name your children Excel, Safari and Dotcom.

You start using smileys in your snail mail and you start tilting your head sideways to smile like this :)

You take 15 minutes to scroll your bookmark list from top to bottom.

You watch more YouTube than television.

You read people's blogs to get the news instead of reading the papers.

and lastly, you have the urge of telling all your friends about this...

...okay? you didnt hear this from me.

sentosa yesterday, punggol park today. well basically my neighbourhood. took altogether about 160 plus pictures. so time to break those pictures down to those i'll actually use. took quite a few nice ones so will be a hard decision.

yesterday:
went to sentosa with peici edmund, kimchoon, wing yi, justine and kelina. ate first at some hawker centre. then ate again(only me) when we arrived at the visitor centre. first stop was underwater world. its been a long time since i last went there. sure brings back lots of memories from when i was young. played around in the touch pool, touching fishes, starfish, sharks and stingrays. too bad there aren't any sea cucumbers to wank(those who watched jackass would know what i mean. yeah anyway took tons of pictures there, my favourite was the jellyfishes. they were damn nice. oh we took a picture, where a fish was eating erm, wingyi shall tell all of you, i'm sure it would be her PLEASURE LOL. fooled around in the gift shop where i'm sure we pissed off alot of people..haha. next was the pink dolphin lagoon, i wish i had a pet dolphin, they are seriously cute. some fat white lady in white shirt with a white bra decided to have a swim with them and guess what me and edmund saw..yup. you guess it. anyway after the performance we took a while around the beach where we took some pictures. took the tram to the beach station where we snacked on some food. then took some sky cable where i was screaming like an idiot cause i'm afraid of heights.(those who know me well should know that) edmund and kc wanted to pull the safety bars off. after the ride, we did the lunge which was quite fun, but rather short. wingyi should not drive a car next time cause she kept on banging me. as in her car banging my car, not she banging me..you know bang? anyway, we rushed off because edmund's parents were waiting for us. so, wingyi, kc and me took edmund's parent's car to tampines. along the way we were mad making fun of edmund with his parents listening on..haha. took a bus back from tampines then played some fear till the man u game started.

today:
gamed most of the day. punggol park in the evening. took lots of pictures like i said.not really much happened today, so yeah..school tomorrow.so bye.

forever love, only you.

kosketa minua - Touch me
älä käsilläsi - Not with your hands
vaan niin että tunnen sinut - But the way I can feel you
kosketa minua - Touch me
älä käsilläsi - Not with your hands
mutta sielussasi - But within your soul



minä kaipaan eskimo-ystävääni - I look to my eskimo friend

because i am bored, wiggy asked me to do it and i'm waiting for my gf to call.

this quiz can be used for APEL2, someone please forward this to mr rick toh.

1. Are you single, taken or crushing?
i am spoken for already, which means taken =)

2. Are you happy with your life now?
erm its alright i guess.

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with her him fast?
i sure did, but only asked her after a year of being friends.

4. Have you ever had your heart broken?
twice to be exact.

5. Do you believe in some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
its unforgivable.

6. Would you take someone back if she cheats on you?
yes, i'm forgiving (ohhh contradiction)

7. Have you ever talk about marriage with another before?
yeah, but she doesn't like talking about it.

8. Do you want children?
i guess so.

9. How many?
2-3 perhaps, the more the merrier. haha

10. Would you consider adoption?
only if the baby is an eskimo,australia or canadian.LOL

11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know her feelings?
i kinda doubt it, everyone kinda sees me more as friend material, anyway back to topic, just be honest about it for you shall receive honesty back from me.

12. Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
YES. CAUSE I'M WITH HER <333333333333333

13. Be honest, what is the furthest thing you n your ex did?
hmmm my ex is my current gf, hahaha..anyway its for me to know and no one to find out =P

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
YES I DO.

15. Are you romantic?
i'm a helpless romantic. there was this one time where i bought her 47 roses and i always remind her that i love her.

16. Do you believe you can change someone?
love can change anyone if they are willing to change.

17. Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
yes i do, i don't like fighting with my gf.

18. Do you have feelings for someone right now?
geee i wonder.

19. Have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
nope, i'm happy with the one i'm with.

20. Have you ever broken a heart?
doubt it.

21. If one day your best friend falls in love with the girl/guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
i'll smack him in the balls, i'm serious.


22. Are you missing someone right now?
VERY MUCH

Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.
YOU.the bored
YOU.the lonely
YOU.the one in love
YOU.the one without love
YOU.well just you..

OMG DAMN TIRED CAN DIE PLEASE. today consisted of basketball, rushing for presentation and presenting, most of it, by myself. xw and lj damn bastard, everytime they stuck they just look at me. haha but never mind la, can practice public speaking and pillai said we did quite well. after apel, had lunch with lj and xw at design, xw was still hungry after eating chicken chop, and i was basically stuff like a thanksgiving turkey. walked to the basketball court and along the way they tried teaching me chinese. played basketball before and after mmp. wah i seriously damn lousy now, so much for school team player. play 10 mins and i'm panting. director's cup no chance for sure, unless opposition teams are like midgets or hobbits. should have stuck to captain's ball. anyway, yeah should train myself soon. soon is the keyword, who knows when that will be. anyway, played ball for like 1 hour after school ended. lost terribly to some people. then went to flavours to cool off with xw, edmund and wz. talked some cock then cab back with wz at 5.30. knn i think i pulled my thigh muscle, cause its damn pain when i walk. limping now please. anyway on a brighter note, TODAY IS NOVEMBER 2 2006 WHICH IS THE START OF THE OC:SEASON 4!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO













k bye.

so i got a new camera for the time being until my other camera gets fixed.oh got a photo printer as well =D it prints damn clear pictures. LOVES IT..can print all my pictures now FOR FREE! WOOOOOOOOOO.. ok back to reality, school today was long. cmsk in the morning. mmp was next, and straight up mr jonathan decides to pile us with our first assignment which is due tomorrow. haizzzz..seriously messed up. 2 hours break was spent at haagen vaz if thats how it's spelt with xw and liang jun. ate lunch and did IDES, completed all except self-expression. attended IDES, fooled around with friends and computer while waiting for my turn for review. sigh have to re-do quite a few, but never mind, given another week to complete. after IDES was suppose to go for psychology, but once again like yesterday, didn't attend cause none of my friends were going.. so slacked around with ed and wz for 1 hour for lj to finish her jap lecture. crankied at business school and cheers, nacho with lots of cheese..hmmmm. went home with kc,wy,ed,wz and lj, riding in style with kim choon's dad's pimpin' lorry!! LOL it was damn fun. the ride home consisted of vulgarities, middle fingers and loads of bullshit..haha damn fun. reached home and had to walk lj to the bus stop..anyway tomorrow is the start of my baby's A levels..BEST OF LUCK SAFY, DO YOUR BEST YA? LOVE YOU LOTS..kk 15 more days till the end of it, which means john will be skipping school to go meet her. LOL ok now for some mmp with xw and lj.