out with the old, in with the new.

so i didnt go to school today, cause i'm sure many of you saw me sneezing my nose off. i hate getting a cold because when i get one, its usually damn bad. had a fever last night as well. so yeah decided not to go. anyway i already bought it so thanks guys and girls for the help. anyway, my parents bought a new car! so yeah not too bad..spacious, but i dont think i'll be allowed to drive that and i don't wanna be seen driving it as well cause it's one of those family space wagons..so no way to driving that. erm i also got a new handphone! about damn time..nokia 6233: music edition. nice looking 3G phone which i think is better that the 5300 which i wanted to get. so aight..new phone and car. anyway, lj's in my house now and we're gonna start on some work now..soooo bye.

for the ladies

peiqi and kelina, please stop staring at me.

to you:

don't say goodbye
don't say farewell
we'll only be apart just this once
don't you cry
please have some fun.

its just a matter of days
till we'll be reunited again
i can see it now
you and me together once more
cuddles and hugs
i bet you can't wait either hun.

seperated by sea
mere distances away
you'll be in hong kong
while i'm here to stay
please come back soon alright baby?

don't say goodbye
don't say farewell
we'll only be apart just this once
don't you cry
please have some fun.
oh and do remember to get me some(presents)

instead of goodbyes
instead of farewells
all i'm saying is "later girl, i'll see you soon"
god bless you, do take care
i'll love you always
that i swear.

way away

you know, sometimes i wished everyone would be less hardworking. everyone seems to be moving in the right direction, 'cept for me. they have their motivation to do better, i don't. example, assignments due in 2 weeks and i got no clue on how to start, while everyone has something to show..i get distracted easily i admit, but i dunno why i allow it to happen..i keep telling myself there's tomorrow, but i guess tomorrow never comes because i keep putting it off..on an even depressing note, my baby's flying off to hong kong for a week. depressing ain't it? i dunno bout you guys but this week is so gonna suck.


if you leave i won't cry
i won't waste a single day
but if you leave don't look back
i'll be running the other way

vanity

so today was oopg lab test..i pretty much messed up because i couldn't compile anything..so i guess its over for me. lol went bedok with wy,lj,xw,ed and kc for lunch. ate carrot cake and chee quey? if thats how its spelt..lol not bad la lunch, was not expensive but filling. bought some fruit thing in a cut watermelon, which was edmund's idea.. i swear the uncle cheated our money. after lunch went to bugis with lj and wy while the rest went to do their own stuff. first bugis street, man it was crowded..was suppose to buy new year clothes but ended up buying HAPPY BUNNY BOXERS OMG THEY ARE DAMN CUTE! lol so i bought 2 boxers..i left shortly to meet my baby for lunch part 2..lol met her at hougang mall and we at long john's..ate crunchy shrimps cause i wasn't really too hungry. ok enough talking pictures of my hot new boxers!

emoetry

woke up at 9am today, which was rather early because i slept at 3am last night. bought a rose for my baby and breakfast at 7-11. met babe at 11 and we left to kovan. baby ate cheese hotdogs for breakfast..and OMG guess what i saw, the lady serving us the food..SHE HAD NO EYEBROWS!! I SWEAR I WAS LAUGHING INSIDE. she went "would you like mayonnaise with that?" and in my mind i went, "no thanks, how bout some eyebrows?" LOL i know its bad la, but WTF SHE HAD NO EYEBROWS! ok enough of that, erm went to raffles place for gym while baby went for her hot yoga. messed around in the gym abit, tried the various machines and stuff. not bad, its just that i dunno how to use most of them..lol anyway i waited for baby for her yoga class to end.. man, its really hot yoga because they do yoga in a heated room where the temperature is raised to 45 degrees or something like that. babe was sweating alot. and she felt hot to the touch. lol anyway, we both showered after that and we went to newton again. she had 2 ballet classes, so i waited for her this time for 1 1/2 hours.. tried to study java but ended up listening to music and walking about. so after her class, went to kovan again, for dinner this time. had pizza hut! hmmmm pepperoni pizza please! so after dinner, she came over to my house to chill..bobbed a bit, was kinda nice,hmmmm..lol hahahahahah anyway, so now i am here deciding if i should study for the lab test tomorrow. i'm sure as shooting that i'll fail the lab test cause java is like my weakest subject..sighh. alright, i think i'm gonna stone awhile more before i start studying..so wish me luck guys and gals.

just another day..

sigh i woke up today and i struck me like a bolt of lightning that i'll be doing this(IND) for 2 more years of my life. java test on saturday. assignments due 3 weeks from now. psychology test next saturday. and i just realised that valentine's day falls on week 17 which sucks like hsifgaioshfigAWUISFYASFGSFIUGOHCIOAYOJHFD9YQAW9Rqoiasfho i'm not sure how i'm gonna go out on valentine's day..sigh and of course..the semester will be ending soon and i'm not sure if i'll be changing course or not. cause honestly, i've 50/50 now. i can't see myself doing this as my profession but than again, i don't wanna waste another year. no clue on what i want in life now. sigh..life's full of problems..

let's bob!

school today was rather short. cmsk conversation circle in the morning and the sentance of the day was by kim choon "let's watch some comic together! hahahahah hilarious, even the teacher laughed..well i think it went pretty well cause richard even joined in the conversation. so it was ok i guess. next was mmp..showed him my storyboard, which justed needing a bit of tweaking i guess. after mmp went to meet jonny and safy at the bus stop..sorry for being late guys. anyway, after meeting them, went to eat lunch at subway..i think i'm addicted to subway cause i can't stop eating at the place when i see an outlet, but oh well, its healthy i think. after lunch, went to newton with my baby for her ballet class. waited for about 1hour and 15 mins for her lesson to end, slept during those 1 hour and 15 mins..was pretty tired.
anyway, next was the freaky part..followed my baby to raffles place for some dance class with her. AND YES i danced or at least attempted to dance, which was supposedly basic hiphop. strangely, there were like aunties in the class and one uncle..oh my. there was hip thrusting, booty shaking, chest krumping, ass smacking and body feeling moves, which is so wrong for a guy to do..i was like erm OKAY? GET ME OUT NOW! but oh well, was quite funny hahaha. after the dance session, went to look around this gym/spa/yoga place. it had a nice atmosphere and was well equipped with equipment. i'm going back there with babe on friday for a free trial gym session and baby's gonna do some hot yoga? whatever that is..so kinda looking forward to it i guess.
went home after signing some papers and we decided to swim. the water was freezing cold for some reason. so there she was walking by the side and i had the strongest urge to carry and toss her in the pool, which i did..haha damn funny please. sorry baby but that was fun. lol we swam over to jacuzzi where we bobbed a little..LOL thats our new word. BOB! lol we love to bob don't we baby..haha anyway swam around abit and decided to go home..so tomorrow's just 2 hours in school gonna come home after that and cut my hair..damn long already. so yeah thats it..

tired is the word for today.
i'm tired of school because its depressing not doing what you like.
i'm tired of assignments because i cant even compete with the rest of my peers
i'm tired of life, please someone get me out of this rut.
i'm tired, well just tired cause i feel asleep after coming back from the IMH trip.
bad headache throughout the day.
headsplitting music now to keep me awake.
pictures updated soon for the trip.
sayonara people.

ps:tomorrow is subway's 10th year anniversary, yayness for free cookies which they'll ve giving off!

today..

so this basically sums up today:


it was rather hot today, so i brought an umbrella


went out with this girl <3


esplanade for some photo taking.


some fish head curry, hmmmmm


the rest of my head had to be sacrificed.(shhhh, i know she's short)


the photography


some one was feeling catty in the cab to uan.


so basically that was it. no homework done yet, nothing studied. i'm so screwed, but than again..


..it was all worth it.

so i did not go to school today cause i had a checkup and an infected toe which is kinda sick to me. so no shoes for me anytime soon i suppose. had cartel with the girls for lunch..been such a long time since i met up with them. sigh it seems no matter what group i am with, i'm the only guy. haha oh well, ate black pepper ribs which i finished for the first time..CHAMPION! walked around hougang mall for a while then went to get my orange and strawberry juice and borrowed thank you for smoking vcd..yayness! walked home with my babe and watched the show once i reach home. as for now, doing whats left on my report, but have a bad feeling i'll do badly for it. and no its not because of my english..its because i might have wrote something wrong for it or missed something out..but oh well



erm..gg?

if you kill me..i'll die..

tuesday is today, and dtat starts of the day.
well, i actually did something and sort of got my logo confirmed, so yayness for that
lunch at kfc, skipped cmaths.
ohhh before that..kc pissed like all over the 3rd floor toilet cause when he was peeing, i pulled him away from the urinal and he didn't stop peeing..haha and he was like some trigger happing soldier shooting his piss all over the floor..hilarious is the word cause i laughed so hard that my stomach ached..and i was like on the floor in the concourse..a moment to remember.
anyway now at home, trying to do ides. index is done left the subpage, but i'm having some difficulties with a drop down menu..anyone willing to teach me how to do that using photoshop? your help is much appreciated.
until then, guess i would try to finish up my subpage, so later..

oh and edmund, i'm eating cherries now..hehe good freaking game!

i <3 girl.

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
No one could hold me down
No one could keep me around
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby, show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time

Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

My father, he was always wise
As wise as an elephant's eyes
He couldn't hold me down
He couldn't keep me around
So are you gonna take your shot?
It's the only one that you got
Maybe I'll go out on a limb
Maybe I'll jump in for a swim
When the lights go dim

You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
(Need to take a holiday)

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
And I don't think I'll ever change
I think I'm gonna stay the same

I'll run away
I need to take a holiday (Need to take a holiday)
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase (Set off on a new chase)
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

Start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

'nuff said..

for all of those who do not like java, guess what..



..so do i.

you know, there's something which sets me aside from the rest of the people in the class..something which really can influence a person to do well or bad. unlike most people in my class, i do not want to be in ind. i mean seriously, the rest of you have dreams of being web designers or whatever, but i don't. maybe thats why i never really put all my effort into my work. i am a hardworker believe it or not. i kinda was in secondary school where things made a whole lot of sense to me compared to know. somehow, i think i would have been much more happy in jc compared to being in ind.. no offense to the rest of the class, but this is just not my calling. i see the rest putting in so much effect and dedication that it really scares me to be with the rest of you. i guess you can say i'm intimidated by everyone's work cause i know everyone is better than me, one way or another. i know i've been complaning alot these days..but i dunno. i can't really discuss this with my family, they are kinda only bothered with the things that matter to them. sigh my head's pounding. sigh fuck this. fuck life cause it brings nothing but misery. communism looks kinda good right about now.

SOME HELP APPRECIATED!

sure is easy and convenient to blame someone who's kinda like the scapegoat in this family.. i hate being at home. i think i rather be in school. home is just not home. now my mom wants me to apologize to my dad..WTF i did not do anything wrong? so i gotta apologize for not knowing how to fix the internet. she said i must show respect, which i clearly did and i said he was the one that did not respect me and guess what she said..she clearly said this, " we are you parents why must we respect you?" WTFAYHFAFAOUFIAOFYAEHFOYOQROH.. i always thought respect was like a two way thing.. they said i'm becoming worst as a person when its clearly them so fuck them.. their the one setting a bad example not me..fucking hate them now. seriously, hope they both die of cancer from the many cigarettes which they smoke. i really feel like spiting them..i just can't fucking stand it seriously, i am blamed for everything that goes wrong in this god forsaken house. life seriously is not good. school work ain't good, neither are things at home.. by the way, i think they're gonna stop giving me allowence..so i dunno what i'm gonna do..no way in hell i'm gonna apologize cause i did nothing wrong..sigh advice people..what do i need to do? whats the right action to be taken? i usually have answers for most things..but i'm stumped at this..so some help would be nice right about now.

a day in the life of me.

so, you guys read what happen this morning from my previous post, so i'm not gonna elaborate on that. reached school at 1-ish to do cmsk3 report. did like 3 pages, which was kinda alright..that was what the teacher said. so aight..alright it was.
met jonny and we went to hougang mall for dinner with safy. ate at dele france which i swear is a rip off. paid like 30 bucks for fish and chips, salad and calamari.. never i repeat, never gonna eat there again. anyway, helped jonny with his photography assignment..sigh i should be doing that as well, but i'm not..so safy and me posed for him like idiots in the middle of the road divider..after that walked home in the rain. have been getting wet for the past 3 days..which is kinda nice, almost therapeutic for me. oh and guess what, i still don't have internet access in my room because my dad did not provide the access codes to me. so i'm using the desktop now..god how i hate him. anyway, i kinda visited everyone's blog earlier to say a little something which would hopefully cheer them up, cause as everyone knows the power of friendship during these hard times will hopefully shed some light in everyone's life.

anyway,to the guys and girls in C140, i would like to say a big thank you, thank you for letting me be me. for a long time, i've always wondered what kinda person i'll turn out to be, i've kinda changed my personality over the past few years..i have been a rebel, introvert, hard-worker, anti-social, whatever you say, i've done..but as for now..i think i've finally found myself. so to the people of C140..cuddles and mashmellows to you all.

and of course to my beloved girl, stephanie, thanks fo always accepting me for who i am. you have been the only person who stuck by me throughout all my hardship and times of need. thank you, because without you..i just would not be me. i hope you feel better soon, because it hurts to see you like this. i'll do whatever it takes for you to feel better alright? i'll love you always <3

alright i've said my peace..sorry for the emotions being poured out on my blog.. its just that i'm having a tough time now and i guess this is where i can let out all thats inside me. so yeah..have a good one guys.

all the right things for the wrong reasons.

so basically, i found out i am indeed in the wrong course because i realised that the reason why my dad wanted me to enter this course is to help him fix the computer or wireless network at home when its not working. but apparently he didn't know that IND does not really dwell into these areas, so in your face bitch.

anyway he gets pissed at me for having internet connection on my lap top this morning when i was doing cmsk3. so what does he do? he cuts out my internet connection and only will give me back connection when i fix the rest of the computers, which unfortunately i do not know how. so this resulted into shouting and him not paying for my license, all this for not being able to fix the router and internet connection. if i knew how to, i would, but i'm tired of being his lacky because i do not want anything to do with helping him in his "work" so whatever alright, do what you want..cause i'm never ever helping you ever again. and for the record, the problem cant be fixed because you failed to call starhub or linksys when the internet connection fluctuates each night. i've have told him several times that there's something wrong with the router but you always fail to take action you s.o.b. so fuck you cause its your fault and not mine.

he's a selfish bastard who cares for no one but himself and his stupid fucked up work..he wanted me to join IND for him and not for myself..he's a monster and apparently he's making my mom one as well. home is no longer safe, run to the nearest shelter..screaming, riots, helter skelter..home is no longer safe.

so, what's new?

a license to drive..

so apparently, i've signed up for my driving license, so hopefully by year 2, i can drive to school..sweet eh? need to get my own car and start customizing it and stuff..hahah sweeet. anyway, got back some results today, got 2 B's for ides and mmp..considering its last minute work, i'm kinda surprised. lol anyway after school went back to play some ball..sigh i'm tired so not really gonna elaborate. gonna watch some european gigolo now..haha funny shit.

a bandaid covers the bullet hole.

note to self, never watch grey's anatomy when you can't sleep because it just makes you not sleep even more. damn sad please D= cried abit last night cause its a bit saddening. sigh makes you appreciate your life..anyway i finally slept at like 4am, woke up at like 8.15 so yeah, lack of sleep once again. wore something really unusual to school today..honestly, i looked weird right? wtf was i thinking? anyway, i passed both cmaths and oopg term test, but i guaran-damn-tee i got like the lowest in class for both..sigh saddening once again. i am so not meant for this course. the thoughts of changing course have struck my mind once again. but oh well..ate at mensa for lunch, dont know why i keep buying the jap food there when it sucks..anyway after that went for cmaths lecture then went home to meet my baby for dinner at 5pm..decided to not meet her friends cause one of them was sick and i was basically exhausted, so went to kovan instead for prata! WOOOOO..damn nice please..had thosai? paper prata and indian lamb stew/soup, kambeng soup i think..OH AND GUESS WHAT THEY HAD..ICE LIMUA!! which is basically lime with ice water and sugar..omgg damn long never drink ah..explaining is no use, guess you just have to try it for yourself..it beats horlick peng edmund..anyway it all cost like 10 bucks which included safy's milo dinosaur and 2 plain pratas..gahhh still damn full from eating, but it was totally worth it i guess..lets have a prata party next time ya? sigh as for now..dtat. please if anybody has a clue what zel wants us to do, raise your hand, because i'm unable to comprehend her instructions, if she actually gave out any proper ones..

i like..

you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
whispers "hello, I've missed you quite terribly."
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
that there's no place else I could be but here in your arms.

pictures speak louder than words.

went to edmund's gig today,
paid 10 bucks for entrance and had a free drink
some vodka lime to start the party..
saw tons of st pats people there
saw paul twohill's group as well
basically i saw alot of people i know
also had my baileys with milk
which beats horlicks peng by a mile
anyway, the bands which perform were good
various genres, different styles
not too bad..
ate kfc twice as well,
omg the calories
need to work out more tomorrow
ed and xw followed me back to hougang, made them.
lol thanks guys
saw my brother at the station, so i took bus back with him
lots of work to be done tomorrow
might go to town to take some pictures
might stay home to do dtat
not sure yet..
anyway picture time..


edmund the shy bastard

the lovely couple

edmund the superstar

rockstar supernova

i think i'm in a rut,
life's getting boring, almost a routine
you wake up, go to school, do your work, go home, sleep
repeat - 5 times a week
sort of like lyrics from a song,
anyway, i'm just ranting here.
found out today that their cancelling the oc after its 4th season running,
sigh, guess people stopped watching it cause it got old or something
i've learnt alot from the oc,
it kinda mould me to the person i am today
sarcasm, catch phrases, songs, dressing
yup all gone,
sigh..its like a huge part of me got ripped out.
but life goes on i guess..

anyway,i'm gonna do a bit of personal reflection now
gonna follow my new year's resolution:

things which i did good:
1. i fed 2 stray cats
2. i have not watched porn in like 10 days(seriously..)
3. photography's back
4. exercising again

not too bad i guess,
now on to the bad..

things which i did bad:
1. haven't done any school work yet
2. still an asshole at times(not being nice, etc.)

well thats all i can think of,
but not watching porn triumphs being an asshole
so i guess i'm still good..

alright people, off now to watch grey's anatomy,
which is currently my new oc..

so its the first day of the second term of the second semester in my first year of poly life..wasn't too bad the first day. quite slack..there was no cmsk1 and pillai allowed us to do our own work, mmp work of course. after was ides, just had to do research and present our findings. towards the end, i fell asleep in class cause i was damn tired..skipped psychology lecture for bubbletea lol. raining heavily when i got home, so ended up walking in the rain. tomorrow, my baby's coming to tp to hang with me and jonny, then we gonna play some ball..ed and kc should be joining us. so yeah, looking forward to tomorrow.



to love and be loved
this is my promise to you
no matter what comes between us
i'll always be there for you
you are my one true love
the only girl for me
so, look forward to this year girl
cause it belongs to you and me
forever love, onlyou